Update 12/5/14

CW: 116.4

I b/p this morning. I’ve been going to the gym everyday. I’ve been so triggered lately. Everything. I remember now why I stopped watching tv… There’s just too much on it to remind me of shit I don’t need to be reminded of. I’m loosing myself. There was a great post it said “you ever miss yourself? The person you were before someone hurt you?” That’s me. But really I’ve been damaged for so long Idk what my “normal” is. How do you go back to being normal when your life dramatically changed at age 4 and continued in a spiral that just kept spinning you out of control but you had to keep it all together for so long you don’t know how to let it go? It becomes a comfort to you to hold on to the bad emotions…

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